Apr. 3rd, 2002

savvyarchive: (wobbly heads)
Stress and contentment are learning to coexist within me. My family situation is gnawing at me steadily and unmercifully. My parents sent me an email telling me they want to see me Wednesday night. That will be a week now, that I haven't been home. I didn't take nearly as much with me as I should have when I left.

I visited my aunt Kim and grandmother Julie, and they were both very supportive of my decision to leave home. They agreed that it was time and that everyone would be happier once the adjustment period was over. Somehow, I still feel bad because it was the first time I openly defied my parents, turned my back and didn't make contact for a week. I have never gone this long without talking to them. It feels almost like a breakup.

At this point, I long for a few simple things. I long to see my parents smile at me. I feel like I have hurt them so bad but people keep reminding me that what I want is natural for the stage of life I am in. School isn't going so well this semester. I want to try to salvage a few things academically. My decision to move out has had no effect on my grades. They already sucked. (See: personal motto, "It's not that I'm lazy, it's that I just don't care."

I long for a pair of clean underwear and my blue Chuck Taylors. I long for my orthopedic pillow and my 400 page journal from high school. There are several items that are very special to me and that I resent not having access to.

Brian's computer is playing the melody from Close Encounters of the Third kind. Niftee.

Okay.. Well I went to satire and we watched Roger & Me, a documentary about the massive GM lay-offs in the 70's that destroyed the lives of some 30, 000 people in Flint, Michigan. It's by Michael Moore, and it's an absolute masterpiece. The way he edited together the interviews was perfect because he let his interview subjects hang themselves, and let the juxtaposition of the bleak images from the streets of Fllint and the plastic smiles of the corporate sharks speak volumes. Masterful, and I've only seen half of it.

A synopsis for your viewing pleasure )

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